spawn of satan

one of the 5 cats puked in front of my room. never will I even think that it was my beloved cat max. I just got home from working all day I asked father to clean it up.
father refused as usual. and i being as spiteful as I am..
cleaned it up by putting it in a napkin and then placing it in front of his door.
take that.
I hope if I ever have children they don't take after me.
what a dick move....
shit.

for Sam

shine1
verb, shone or, esp. for 9, 17, shined; shin·ing; noun

–verb (used without object)

1.	to give forth or glow with light; shed or cast light.

2.	to be bright with reflected light; glisten; sparkle.

3.	(of light) to appear brightly or strongly, esp. uncomfortably so: Wear dark glasses so the sun won't shine in your eyes.

4.	to be or appear unusually animated or bright, as the eyes or face.

5.	to appear with brightness or clearness, as feelings.

6.	to excel or be conspicuous: to shine in school.

–verb (used with object)

7.	to cause to shine.

8.	to direct the light of (a lamp, mirror, etc.): Shine the flashlight on the steps so I can see.

9.	to put a gloss or polish on; polish (as shoes, silverware, etc.).

–noun

10.	radiance or brightness caused by emitted or reflected light.

11.	luster; polish.

12.	sunshine; fair weather.

13.	a polish or gloss given to shoes.

14.	an act or instance of polishing shoes.

15.	Informal. a foolish prank; caper.

16.	Slang: Disparaging and Offensive. a black person.

—Verb phrase

17.	shine up to, Informal. a. to attempt to impress (a person), esp. in order to gain benefits for oneself. b. to become especially attentive to (one of the opposite sex): Men shine up to her like moths to a light.

—Idioms

18.	come rain or shine, a. regardless of the weather. b. no matter what the circumstances may be: Come rain or shine, he is always on the job. Also, rain or shine.

19.	take a shine to, Informal. to take a liking or fancy to: That little girl has really taken a shine to you.

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[Origin: bef. 900; ME s(c)hinen (v.), OE scīnan; c. D schijnen, G scheinen, ON skīna, Goth skeinan]

—Synonyms 1. glimmer, shimmer. Shine, beam, glare refer to the emitting or reflecting of light. Shine refers to a steady glowing or reflecting of light: to shine in the sun. That which beams gives forth a radiant or bright light: to beam like a star. Glare refers to the shining of a light that is not only bright but so strong as to be unpleasant and dazzling: to glare like a headlight. 9. buff, burnish, brighten. 11. gloss, gleam, glow, sheen.

tingle tangle tee

confusion squishes me. it blots out my clear view. makes me silly. my silliness shines..my hatred for you makes me dizzy.
I swirl. swimming in swirling booze. delicious.
I'm caught up..up high on a clothing line..dangeling...thinking...memorizing..remembering.
things seem to hit me when I don't expect them. They pour out of my unconscious mind into my dreams and i wake up fearing them.
I don't fear you.
I would do bad good things to you.
dizzy me up..
amazing things happen when your back is turned. don't trust me, i wont trust you..push me as far down as you possibly can. as far down as the soaking dirt will allow and I'll jump back up and surprise you.
It's magical down here in this belly of sand. and although I'm sinking part of me is rising. my heart is beating. I can hear you. I can hear the silence.
Silence scares me. It makes me antsy. I jitter and jive in my seat of silence.
but it moves me...it progresses. it makes me be better..want to be better. want to be greater. to shine so bright in the moonlight. to be the moon and the stars and sun and give it all to you.
give myself all to you.