Saturday, May 24, 2008

check 2 1 2

The other day I stopped to visit trisha and get coffees for dez harm and myself. when coming to hang and give them their treats I stumbled upon the movie they were watching.
While dez searched the web for shoes and harm played his ds I got absorbed by this movie. I couldn't move. I hate entering movies late and not knowing whats going on but I caught on pretty quick.
The Title is "Le Vie en Rose" which is about Edith Pilaf and her life and how it came to be. It's completely in French since she after all was French and a French singer. Although they weren't fully watching the movie they'd glance up and we'd talk about what was going on. How crazy she was yet how beautiful. The actress who played her one an award for her performance and looked so much like her in the movie it was crazy. The movie is constantly not in present day. It flashes from present to past always and gives you glimpse of different times and days. In the end it all makes sense of why this is going on. This movie really made me appreciate Edith Pilaf her voice is absolutely amazing. If you're into foreign films I definitely recommend renting this movie. You wont be let down.
Since I've been sick lately and trying to get over it I actually ended up watching two more movies that night since I finally had time to watch my netflix.
First on the list was Happiness.
I attempted to watch this movie a few times before but for some reason kept falling asleep during it so I figured why the hell not get it on Netflix, which was definitely a good idea because it was an amazingly intense engrossingly funny and awkward movie.
This movie is twisted and yet gets to the core of some real life shit. Hoffman gets real creepy in it and I love it. He does an amazing job of course. Theres definitely a sexual tone to the entire movie. Whether it be Trish's son trying to cum and talking to his dad in extremely awkward conversations on how to masturbate, or Hoffman calling up random women in the phone book and telling them he's going to make them cum from their ears while jerking off this movie shows I think some true aspects of peoples sexual and normal relations with those around them. The title definitely suits the movie. Its as though through out it people are just trying to do them and live their lives and maybe eventually find happiness. Even if it is being able to masturbate and make yourself cum at 12. It's a great movie and if you love awkwardness thats comical I recommend it for sure.
The next movie I decided to watch even though it was getting really late was Hard Candy.
When I first added this movie to my list on Netflix it was an accident. I was trying to add this movie that Heath Ledger was in about Heroin but then I read what this film was about and decided it'd be interesting so I mise well keep it and I'm happy I did.
It's a thriller for sure but not the kind where theres blood and guts but there are a few times where you'll definitely jump. Ellen Page does an amazing job and they make her up to be really really young and innocent but you find out something much much different when the movie gets going. If you don't know what it's about I'll give a quick summary. Basically this girl is a teenager, 14, I believe and she starts chatting with this man whose in his 30s online in a chat room. She asks him to meet and they do at a coffee shop. From there they go to his place where things get intense. Of course at this point the viewer is thinking this man in a molester or a killer or at least has alternative motives besides hanging out. After all, what kind of 30something man meets with a 14 year old girl? But as the movies unravel you see who really has the alternative plans and it gets crazy. The ending was brilliant. It's set up so you think one thing is going to happen and a split second after it does you realize that its not what was going to happen after all. It was awesome and it kept me up until 3 in the morning.
Theres my movie update. I'll have more soon.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Sex and The City vs. Rocky Horror Picture Show

The other day on the radio my father was telling me there was a girl who said she had sex at like 13 or 14 because she thought it was ok from watching Sex and The City. I hate when people blame their actions on media. Of course...media DOES influence us and our tastes..but really.
When I was 7 my crazy drug addict aunt (shes clean now btw) was supposed to be watching me...so what she did was put on Rocky Horror Picture show in the family and left to do who knows what. I sat there..watching this Transsexual man whom I could've sworn I've seen play other none men that looked like ladies...create a muscle man...take advantage of Janet then take advantage of Brad and in the end have a huge orgy in the pool. Did this make me want to start dressing of the opposite sex? no. Did this make me want to go and have sex? hell no I didn't even understand it when I watched it. Did this make me think it was ok to act as these crazy amazing characters acted...once again..no.
My friends and cousins have been playing violent video games since the beginning of time..well since they've been around anyways. These things never made any of them go and shoot up the school or kill their parents or think it was ok to steal etc.
We always scapegoat.
Sometimes when certain people see or play certain things it does put things in their minds. BUT parents are supposed to monitor their children. Help them. Watch them. Make sure they're not killing people or having sex in the car outside. Shouldn't we ourselves take some responsibility for our actions and perhaps shouldn't the parents of children who do terrible acts take some responsibility as well?
Now...kids today have sex at like 12..that girl saying it was Sex and The Cities fault is nutso. Damn just admit it...you wanted to do it.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

One is Silver and the Others Gold

I look at old pictures. Then I look at new.
I ask myself "what am I doing with my life"
think for a second.
and then respond "amazing things Lindsey...amazing things"

two drops two pounds two drops I'm too sick



it's creepy. i love it. watch it more than once..you'll love it too.
watch..you'll be quoting it for dayz.


I just cleaned so much but feel like I've gotten no where. 3 bags of clothes I just packed to get rid of...3 fucking bags. thats ridiculous.
as my mom would say "thats a sin"

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Home Sweet Home

I swallowed my septum ring. In my sleep.
road bike. sun. wd40. starbucks. le vie en rose. Sam Adams Summer Ale.
blued eye boy meets brown eyed girl...the sweetest thing?

Friday, May 16, 2008

This is who I am...

And I'm not sorry.
Stop. Look around you. Don't cross the street you may get hit by one of the yellow ones...they don't stop. Frustration bores me but I let it conquer me. I'm young, and I love to be young. Why be upset when you can be happy?
Quit frustrating me. Don't judge me. I don't judge you. Who are you to say whats wrong whats right? Take a minute. Look in the mirror. Maybe you'll quit pointing your finger at others and start seeing the reflection of you. You're not perfect. You don't know me. Don't judge me.
Don't judge my friends. This is my life and I'm not sorry. I live. I make mistakes. I fight. I survive. I'm a seasoned fighter. Leave it be. Leave me be.
I've been swallowed whole and I'm happy to be here in this belly. I don't need your judgements. If I really thought you're judgements mattered don't you think I'd reflect on them for a minute? Why don't you quit looking me and everyone I'm with up and down and start maybe doing some self reflecting?! Theres a start. Get over the drama you've created in your head. Or better yet be a better person and get over things that happened in the past. Move on. Grow up.
Don't do this, do do that. Get outta here with you're shit. Step aside as TFM would say.
Let me live man. Live and let live. Back off. Get a brain. Grow a brain.

New Yark

It's been awhile.
My first year at F.I.T is ending and its been amazing.
I'm stoked to go home but this city has swallowed me whole and I love it.
New York..you will be missed..I'll be back soon.