Like screaming at wall..

I don't know what it is. I don't know if I'll be able to describe it or answer what it is but I'm just completely over it. I feel lost and even worse I feel abandoned by people who I thought would never abandon me. It sucks, I feel alone. I'm over everything and wanting something but not really knowing what it is. Maybe thats why I've been working so much, I feel more comfortable at fucking work than I do with my own "friends" sometimes. Because along with my friends come people who dislike me and I feel judged. I hate feeling judged and like I'm the odd man out with people I'm supposed to be most comfortable around. ughhhhrrrrr