Like screaming at wall..

I don't know what it is. I don't know if I'll be able to describe it or answer what it is but I'm just completely over it. I feel lost and even worse I feel abandoned by people who I thought would never abandon me. It sucks, I feel alone. I'm over everything and wanting something but not really knowing what it is. Maybe thats why I've been working so much, I feel more comfortable at fucking work than I do with my own "friends" sometimes. Because along with my friends come people who dislike me and I feel judged. I hate feeling judged and like I'm the odd man out with people I'm supposed to be most comfortable around. ughhhhrrrrr

Cover Show

The show last night was amazing! There was a great turn out and all the bands did so well. I've got some pictures from the Fear set and it was pure chaos yet SO amazing! The hanging out afterwards was a blast too. It was awesome that everyone was gathered in the same place having a great time. I feel like that hasn't happened in awhile. It was amazing. I'll be posting pictures soon.

This movie is wack..

I'm watching Cinderella on the family Channel. The new-ish kind of one thats a musical, Brandy is in it. Anyways, please tell me how a black women and a white man can have a korean son. I understand they're trying to show as many races as they can..and perhaps ones answer to this statement may be adoption, but hello this is cinderella..there is no adoption in cinderella. Therefore, I believe they are trying to say it is definitely possible for a white man and black women to have a korean son. Now, I'm totally for different race couples and adoption and everything like that..but this is just not logical for the story of Cinderella. Why do people try to be soooooooo politically correct and acknowledge everyone and everything. It's good to be somewhat politically correct but for some reason I see this as, dare I say..too much?
Maybe it's just me..

So this is the new year..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
But seriously...I've had a sort of self revelation...and it has helped me conclude on my main new years resolution and that is to not give a shit anymore. I've spent my whole life giving a shit and worrying and honestly its gotten me no where. Therefore...my number one new years resolution is to stop giving a shit.
Maybe I'll get a little ahead with this conclusion...and feel a little more comfortable I dunno.
Because as of now..I don't feel any different..maybe worse? I'm gonna make a change you'll see.