I always wondered why professors give you average or below average amounts of work and give you weeks to do certain things and then when it nears the end of the semester they pile shit on. For instance, my 3D professor. He gives us a month pretty much to do this one project a project that definitely shouldn't have taken that long but since he was giving us the time what the hell why not slack? So of course, I slack. Now, for the past two or three weeks he has loaded us up with as much building, painting, cutting, gluing any person could ever endure. I've had a project due every week pretty much and usually this doesn't bug me except that EVERY OTHER PROFESSOR piled the work on too. Why is this? Why do they not evenly space projects, assignments, papers, whatever through out the semester? I mean your doing fine your writing responses, listening to some boring lectures, slacking in class..as in leaving early to get coffee and then BAM in comes the work and smacks you literally like a stack of books in the face. I don't get it. I really don't. They probably get together before every semester and think about how they can fuck over the students. "Oh that Benny, he's a good student lets ruin his life by driving him crazy with shit piles of work." I'm telling you...its a conspiracy.
Oh and PS: I never posted the pictures of the cover show because I'm a moron or just didn't feel like doing it. Regardless...I sent them to Sawyer and I'm not 100% if he posted them or not but if you want to see them check out his photo blog.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
H8..otherwise known as 'Hate'
I hate people. I hate work. I hate working with people. I hate people who come into work. I hate dealing with people at work, unless I like them..which I generally dont.
The end:)
I'm really not in bad mood. I was just talking to my brother about things and it came to both of our attention that I hate people and I really hate working. Both of which I will have to do and be around my entire life.
In my own little mind I decided that if I were ever truly alone, lost, stranded, dying..etc. I would call my brother first, that is aside from my parents. Usually at such a weird thought I would instantly think I'd call a friend. But, I've decided no. No, I will not call a friend I will call my brother. Because, you see, I can always count on my brother. Literally ALWAYS. And lately, I've come to a sad relization that you cannot and should not count on friends. Because friends, aren't really always true, and lately it's actually quiet amazing to figure out who is for real and who isn't. However, my brother, he will always be there and respect me and love me for me no matter what I do. And it's true. Friends, they may not or dare I say will not do that. Some will. The real ones will..the fake will just fuck you over.
This is just a babble post.
I love my family.
The end:)
I'm really not in bad mood. I was just talking to my brother about things and it came to both of our attention that I hate people and I really hate working. Both of which I will have to do and be around my entire life.
In my own little mind I decided that if I were ever truly alone, lost, stranded, dying..etc. I would call my brother first, that is aside from my parents. Usually at such a weird thought I would instantly think I'd call a friend. But, I've decided no. No, I will not call a friend I will call my brother. Because, you see, I can always count on my brother. Literally ALWAYS. And lately, I've come to a sad relization that you cannot and should not count on friends. Because friends, aren't really always true, and lately it's actually quiet amazing to figure out who is for real and who isn't. However, my brother, he will always be there and respect me and love me for me no matter what I do. And it's true. Friends, they may not or dare I say will not do that. Some will. The real ones will..the fake will just fuck you over.
This is just a babble post.
I love my family.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Am I asking too much to keep you at arms length?..a little venting
After moping around for weeks (I know its depressing) I've come to the realization that it is pointless. And, after talking to my dear good true best friend Olivia, I have decided that people suck. Yes, thats right my friends people suck. They're selfish, inconsiderate pricks, to be honest. I suppose it's somewhat human nature to put yourself first however, I find I sometimes have a HUGEEEE problem with this. I suck at it. I never put myself first and when I do I still feel like shit so it's like god damn whats the deal? I hate hindsight and I hate that it's 20/20 because when I look back on shit, most shit, I'm like fuck, JESUS FUCK, what is my deal? Why can't I do what I know I need to do? With some shit..I just can't let go. It's like the more you care about me the more I want you away from me and the more you treat me like shit the more I need you around. (this obviously isn't true in ALL scenarios but to some it couldn't be more evident.) It's ridiculous and really fucking common. It's common for people to do that shit and thats nuts. Why do people love struggles? Why do people do mean things? Why do people backstab their 'friends' and people they 'care' about in the back? What the fuck is wrong with humankind? People, including myself, need to become for selfless.
No ones perfect, but jesus why are you SUCH a disgustingly, disrespectful, overall bad person?
I've fucked up. I've made mistakes but never have I done it with such disregard as others do. I take full responsiblity for my actions and I know I have to I know that as a fucking human being I am responsible for the things I do and say and the people I hurt..and sometimes I don't give a shit until after I do the bad thing whatever it may be and sometimes I just can't stop it because of my own shit in my own head but I'm over it.
I'm keeping you at arms length.
No ones perfect, but jesus why are you SUCH a disgustingly, disrespectful, overall bad person?
I've fucked up. I've made mistakes but never have I done it with such disregard as others do. I take full responsiblity for my actions and I know I have to I know that as a fucking human being I am responsible for the things I do and say and the people I hurt..and sometimes I don't give a shit until after I do the bad thing whatever it may be and sometimes I just can't stop it because of my own shit in my own head but I'm over it.
I'm keeping you at arms length.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Update..Shootings
UPDATE: 34 people in all were killed (thats including the gunman). Apparently, the police did not shoot him down but when they finally got into the engineering building he had already turned the gun on himself.
It's being said that the gunman was Korean, and attending the University on a student visa. I'm sure more and more will continued to be found and discussed in this case.
The only truly scary thing is that this kind of hits close to home, being that I myself are in college and most of my friends and family are in or will be in college. Seeing the pictures of the students killed and the Professors almost brought me to tears. It's terrifying. Like I said before if school isn't safe anymore what is?
A lot of people are saying that there should've been more security and police should've done a better job at predicting where he would be. Well..hindsight is 20/20 and theres no way they could've known, especially since hey got a lead which led them in the opposite direction from where the second shootings occured.
It's just not logical to think that colleges and universities around the world are going to have armed patrol men on campus. I'm sure something will happen in response to this (much like the metal detectors etc that occured after colombine). But, if you think about it, since he was a student at the campus, if they had guards at every building he would still have access in because he would've had a student idea.
I know at Sage, as well as Siena, St.Rose, and SUNY you really only need an ID to get into the cafeteria and the dorms..so how can action be taken to make a campus more safe?
There are school that have guards in every building, including F.I.T where I'm transferring and other city schools I have been in. But, all you have to do is show your student ID and your free to go and do as you please.
I guess the real question is...what else can you do? What other measures, if any, can be taken to prevent this from happening again? More servillances, better security? I mean would either of these really matter if a person knew a campus and knew a way around them? We're starting to live in a Big Brother world where every aspect of our lives is needing to be monitored to keep us "safe". Obviously, something needs to happen, but what?
It's being said that the gunman was Korean, and attending the University on a student visa. I'm sure more and more will continued to be found and discussed in this case.
The only truly scary thing is that this kind of hits close to home, being that I myself are in college and most of my friends and family are in or will be in college. Seeing the pictures of the students killed and the Professors almost brought me to tears. It's terrifying. Like I said before if school isn't safe anymore what is?
A lot of people are saying that there should've been more security and police should've done a better job at predicting where he would be. Well..hindsight is 20/20 and theres no way they could've known, especially since hey got a lead which led them in the opposite direction from where the second shootings occured.
It's just not logical to think that colleges and universities around the world are going to have armed patrol men on campus. I'm sure something will happen in response to this (much like the metal detectors etc that occured after colombine). But, if you think about it, since he was a student at the campus, if they had guards at every building he would still have access in because he would've had a student idea.
I know at Sage, as well as Siena, St.Rose, and SUNY you really only need an ID to get into the cafeteria and the dorms..so how can action be taken to make a campus more safe?
There are school that have guards in every building, including F.I.T where I'm transferring and other city schools I have been in. But, all you have to do is show your student ID and your free to go and do as you please.
I guess the real question is...what else can you do? What other measures, if any, can be taken to prevent this from happening again? More servillances, better security? I mean would either of these really matter if a person knew a campus and knew a way around them? We're starting to live in a Big Brother world where every aspect of our lives is needing to be monitored to keep us "safe". Obviously, something needs to happen, but what?
Monday, April 16, 2007
VA Tech Shooting/Massacre
When I was eating breakfast this morning (around 10:30) the news said there was 1 dead 1 wounded on the Virginia Tech University. By the time I got home from class around 2..the number had skyrocketed to 32 dead 28 wounded. It's said to be the worst shooting OF ANY KIND in American history (up until today the worst shotting was in 1966 and left 16 dead). When the shooter first entered the AJ dorm building he was looking for his girlfriend..shot one kid then an RA tried to help and he shot them too. For 2 hours, yes TWO HOURS, the shooter managed to blend in with the other students in the campus center and what not until he decided to strike again in the engineering building. Apparently, he walked in and chained the fucking doors shut behind him. Then, preceeded to go from class room to class room just shooting people.
He had two glock 9mm with clips in a fanny pack around his waist, which you can empty a 15-17 round clip in about 3-5 seconds...so in about 7 minutes you could have fired 100 rounds. Finally, the police got to him and shot him dead.
I'll post a link to the New York Times, but their numbers as of now only say 21 or 22 people dead. However, live TV has added it up to 32 so far and are estimating the number goes up due to the amount of the wounded in critical condition.
It's being said that this was completely pre-meditated. I think thats more than obvious judging by the chaining of the doors and the fact that he waited 2 or more hours to make his next attack.
It's horrible to think that this could happen again in America. School is supposed to be a safe place. If a school or campus isn't safe anymore, then what is? And it's semi ironic that it happened the same week in which Colombine happened 8 years ago.
Here's the link the the Times.
http://www.nytimes.com/2007/04/16/us/16cnd-shooting.html?em&ex=1176868800&en=e24ccc9c3571672f&ei=5087%0A
He had two glock 9mm with clips in a fanny pack around his waist, which you can empty a 15-17 round clip in about 3-5 seconds...so in about 7 minutes you could have fired 100 rounds. Finally, the police got to him and shot him dead.
I'll post a link to the New York Times, but their numbers as of now only say 21 or 22 people dead. However, live TV has added it up to 32 so far and are estimating the number goes up due to the amount of the wounded in critical condition.
It's being said that this was completely pre-meditated. I think thats more than obvious judging by the chaining of the doors and the fact that he waited 2 or more hours to make his next attack.
It's horrible to think that this could happen again in America. School is supposed to be a safe place. If a school or campus isn't safe anymore, then what is? And it's semi ironic that it happened the same week in which Colombine happened 8 years ago.
Here's the link the the Times.
http://www.nytimes.com/2007/04/16/us/16cnd-shooting.html?em&ex=1176868800&en=e24ccc9c3571672f&ei=5087%0A
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